The digressions are getting worse.

I subscribe to too many RSS feeds with little numbers that continually pop-up urging me to check and read them so the little damn numbers will go away.  I have several alarms that go off telling me when to do things- go to class, wake up, go to the library- coming from all these stupid devices that are sync'd.

The ghosts that are haunting me are ridiculous.   

In trying to uncover the reason behind this obsessive completely time wasting addiction I have to notifications, I find that it is merely a reason for distraction- but one that I don't have to feel guilty about because it must be done - but that's just the obsession talking.  The logic that lies behind these notifications is completely absurd.  Will I feel better about my life if I have little electronic devices telling me when to do things? Do I need that much false structure? Of course. It really is all a means to recapture some sort of sense that life is a structured thing which feels very comforting in the face of the reality; life has no structure, and that's terrifying for me. 

My little numbers are telling me "15".